thoughts

so my boyfriend wanted me to put something more happy in here, because all i ever seem to write about is my thoughts when im upset over something. i've really tried to stay happy when im talking to him but when im not i cant help but feel sad and depressed and lonely most of the time. i have no idea what's wrong. on top of that i'm taking a parenting course and learning about the early symptoms of pregnancy, and so naturally im worrying about everything being a possible symptom even though there's really no way i could be pregnant.

i dont know why im getting so depressed all the time, but i feel like i should just give up and quit trying...in friendships, in love, in everything...i dont know how to handle this anymore. sure, i'll feel cheerful for a little while, but then i get depressed so quickly...